I have a really bad tendency to try and control things. I want to be in control so that I know things will be done correctly, or at least the way I want them done. In reality, I know I’m not in control of anything. NOTHING. So you can see where this can cause some stress for me.
I’ve been going through Discipleship Training through my church, and my eyes are opening to some of the things I try to control. God is speaking to me about obedience in alot of areas right now, and one of them is my faith. Apparently when I take a situation out of God’s hands and place it in mine, that shows a huge lack of faith on my part. He is in control, and always will be. I could never compare.
Worry comes and goes with me, I never really dwell on it, but I do give in at times. God wants me to just go with the flow and trust Him. If I really trust Him, I don’t need a backup plan. So no need to worry. Even if I don’t have answwers to some tough questions.
There’s a strange peace in that. Trusting Him who made me, and everything else.
This morning was a little stressful for me. My daughter needed to be at school early but she didn’t tell me until the last minute, when she wanted to leave. It required juggling my sons and extra traffic, and tension between us. It could have been eliminated if she had just told me about it last night, and I could have responded differently by not becoming aggravated about the traffic.
Life is going to be stressful, especially if I try to control it. I’m not in control. Truthfully, I don’t want to be in control. I just want the peace that comes from knowing Jesus is in control and trusting in Him daily. Living in faith.
Therefore, brothers, in all our distress and persecution we were
encouraged about you because of your faith. 1Thes 3:7
Oh friend! I can totally relate to you on the control thing! Going with the flow sounds so easy, doesn’t it? 😉 Yeah, right. It sounds like your willingness to be lead is leading you straight to blessings in that you were so quickly aware of how the situation this morning could have gone differently. Now practice grace for yourself and you’ll do better next time.
It’s so good to be blogging again!
Thanks for the reminder of extending grace to myself Niki, that’s a hard one for me as well.