Have you ever lost something that you didn’t even know you had? Yet you are sad and grieve for that loss like it was your greatest treasure? That’s what I’m feeling right now, sad for not knowing it was there, and then for losing it before I even knew I wanted it. But I didn’t really want it, and that makes me even sadder. Because had I known, then I would have wanted and loved it, but I didn’t even have the chance. This is just the moment that I’m in and I know it doesn’t make sense. I can’t even make sense of it really.